After what feels like a couple of months of craziness, for me, focused on little else except my transition and how that effects the relationships with my family and friends, I think things are finally starting to settle back into some sort of normalcy, again. I’m pretty sure that almost every interaction I’ve had, recently, has revolved around me, my feelings, and my plans, and while that’s fun for a little while, I’m ready to take a break from the spotlight so I can go back to just enjoying time with my family.
In the last two months I’ve… let’s see: started therapy, come out to the rest of my immediate family and friends, started talking to my doctor about my upcoming HRT, started transitioning my voice, and, well, started a blog (insert witty ‘You Are Here’ imagery). All of that on top of working full time and trying to balance the rest of the household routine, but the stress of it all was well worth the outcome. I couldn’t have hoped for a better reaction from anyone. Everyone has been incredibly supportive, understanding, and ready to help wherever I need them. For that, I love all of them, and I’ll be eternally grateful. I can’t put into words how comforting it is to finally be completely honest with my inner circle and have them accept me for who I really am. I think I was most surprised by the reaction from my dad who, though I knew would ultimately be supportive, seemed more upset that I had waited so long to tell him than anything else.
So, now it’s back to the routine. It’s time to let things settle for a while and get back to taking care of those things that were neglected while my mind was elsewhere, trying desperately to keep up with all of the changes I’ve been pushing for. I’ll still be practicing my voice, fighting with my shaggy hair, trying to lose a few pounds, and generally trying to improve myself, but I think it will be nice to remember what life is like without the pressure of worrying about losing everyone I care about in a few, short sentences.
Who knows? Maybe I can even start blogging a little bit more about other things… *gasp*.. I know, right?